My perfectionist demons are coming after me full force. I write this as I prepare to launch my very first romance novel - That Guy and That Girl! As is typical, my feelings are of the highest highs and the lowest lows.
On the high side: this is the culmination of so many things that mean the world to me. I am thrilled to have a way to build a writing career and in a genre that has brought so much comfort and joy to my life. I pinch myself that I live in a time when an indie author has the tools to self-publish and promote their own work in such effective ways. I get to write!
On the low side: fear and doubt are coming and they’re coming hard. I’m so close and I’ve felt a paralysis try to take over. I’ve struggled to make decisions about my launch and really commit to them. I think and rethink every path, sure that the most recent path I follow must be the right one. I make mental decisions without any hard follow-through so that from day to day I easily forget what came before.
So, I will use this space to declare my intentions:
I will officially launch my novel on April 2nd
I will allow myself to take action which may result in mistakes being made
I will allow the whole process to be messy
I will stay aware so I can learn through every single bit of it
I will be kind to myself and take those lessons into the future
I declare all those intentions while cringing and holding my breath. I can do this. I will do this. That’s all I got. Cross your fingers for me!